I am feeling fat, ugly and abandoned. It's not a fleeting feeling. It runs deep. As painful and dark as this feels…part of me knows it is necessary terrain I must sit in, face and feel. Ugh.

I've been feeling like a little kid a lot lately. Many things are overwhelming me.

I learned to suppress my feelings early. I come from the 'children are to be seen and not heard' and 'I'll give you something to cry about' generation.